two is lonely

what i suppose to say??

i read my friend's entry from his blog a few second ago.
one of my best friends i had since im here ; at MSu..

n now i wanna give him a letter..


FA, u know what??
sometimes people change,,
you...me..and others..
but sometimes we did not realize that we change too fast..
yesterday we can still laughing and meeting , and lepak2 together..
but today..who knows everything gonna change at all..
yes!! we had our own life..
and we had our own litle secret that we cannot share to all of our friends.
but at the bottom of my heart i felt like we not be like before..
together of us..

FA,
please don't say that we don't care about you..
we all love you as a friends.
for me, friends is everything..
i want we be a friends for always and ever after..
i hope this relationship gonna be untill the end of our life
i want when we get old i still had a friends to talk to.. with you, fariz and of course zack..
i want to see UBAN on head each of you..hahaha..
then we all gonna count that uban to see who gonna be the oldest one,laa..=p

FA,
don't get upset if we all don't talk to much to you lately..
the situation did'nt like before..
donno why
when i get older i felt more sensitive..
women, you know laa kan..
the hormone is everywhere in my body..
spread all over my sense..

FA,
i hope you got what you want right now.
i wish for your hapiness with HER
the person that you caring too much
but beware friend; " cinta tak selalunya indah"
please don't put your love for hundreds percent.
keeps your space for both of you..
what important give lots on your studies..
make your parent and siblings pround of you.
and us too..

FA,
there are not easy to find someone, espeacially people that we could call FRIENDS.
im heppy to had you as my friends.
but sometimes friends also can hurt bcoz we human.
im SORRY so much if i had hurt you.
hope we can be back like before.
even it takes time to recover..
just know what..
just forget and forgive..

WE ALL LOVES YOU....

well, im not passionate more about blogging.. donno how.
there was nothing interesting in my life now.. day pass by..turns into month n then a new year has coming... too soon..
see for another post, where there r lots story to tell..

sayonara...

then, nilah my parent.. en.khalid mamat ngan puan ainon ismail.. hehehe..aku rasa bahagia jer bila tengok gambar ni.. first time jugak aku ada gambar parent aku yg duk berdua. kalo tak ada je yg sibuk menempel kat sebelah diorang 2.. acik harap mak ngan ayah akan bahagia sentiasa dengan kami sebagai anak2 mak ngan ayah .. kami sayang kamu berdua..=j..

banyak menda yg aku tak postkan kat cni, semenjak 2 menjak ni aku jadik takut nak post kan something yg tulus ikhlas dari hati aku. walhal ni blog aku, so ikut suka hati akulah nak tulis ape pun,kn?? hak aku.. just blog ni jela yg aku bleh expresskan rasa hati aku. tapi mungkin aku terlalu jahat sangat kot sampai aper yg aku tulis dulu ada wat org yg membacanya sakit hati dan makan hati ngan aku, siap telepon aku tanya macam2.. kat cni aku nak mintak maaf untuk yang sekian kalinya bahawasanya aku terpaksa meluahkan segalanya kat blog aku nih.. kalo terasa janganlah tengok blog aku nih. biarlah aku jadi diri aku kat cni. yeah..aku selalu akan nampak bersalah walaupun kadang2 tu aku tak bersalah langsung!!!!!!

bagilah ruang untuk aku bernafas cket. memang bila aku berhadapan ngan org lain aku akan jdk sebaliknya. aku hipokrit?? mungkin..aku nak jaga hati orang , tapi orang?? ada nak jaga hati aku?? so kalo aku ada terkata " ada aku kisah nanti" janganlah terkejut beruk plak. memang aku sengaja tukar url blog aku dlu..n aku harap sekarang dan selamanya aku takkan tukar lagi.. pasni aku akan cuba menjaga hati aku sendiri. hati aku yang sekeping yang kering...

huh!!!
legaaaaaaa.....

wassalam..

saat ini, campus sudah mula bercuti. namun aku masih disini lagi. entah untuk mencari apa lagi pun aku tidak pasti. hmm.. sudah hampir seminggu aku membuang masa, so aku sudah bercita2 untuk balik kampung akhirnya. walhal sebelum ini aku sedah berkira2 nak kerja part time jer. hmm..membosankan. bila aku fikirkan balik yg monsoon akan datang lagi, terus aku tekad mau balik kmpung. hahaha..bodoh bukan, aku ni bukanlah orang yg tetap dengan pendirian. macam lalang hendaknya. dan aku jugak akan selalu nampak seperti orang yang bersalah walaupun aku bukan!!

zack sudah mau pulang ini malam.
aku mungkin besok saja.
tp gi mana ya mau pulang sendirian??
waduh, aku bisa jadik bingung gni.

aku akan pulang jugak besok.
pasti aku akan pulang..
tap aku takut yg aku tak dapat kembali lagi ke sini..huhuhuhu...

tengok, tunggu dan lihat saja..