waiting for that times to come..

wahh... never thought that finally i really change my title blog's name.. i thought it gonna be more motivate to myself. coz right now i seldom doing an update.. maybe i quite lazy for a few weks ago.. really got a hypertension...wahh, terlebih sudah. there are no more things i wanna do since days ago.. but referring to the nearest fasting month which coming soon,i start to wondering .... a fun things that i could do with myhousemate.
and what i really wait is to be at home, at terengganu.. with my mom, dad , sis, and bro.. hmm.. there gonna be a yummy and lots of food at time nak berbuka.. then , i will ride around the kampong with my sis and bro looking for bazaar ramadhan.. in my thought now was... kerang and pari bakar with their delioucious sauce..perghhhhh... i can resist it no more..
mom n sis.... just wait for me, then... miss you all.....
-coming home mayb on 26th september 2008
- cannot wait to meet other there, home sweet home
-nervous to come back there..

layan tension , dengar lagu sumbang

farez wat perangai sengal dia..dah ler kat luar tu mendung gler baban, ader ker plak di awat suara sumbang nyanyi kat scd ni.. huih.camno nak balik nih..kitorang sumer menderita gler baben kat cni, terpaksa menanggung lubang telinga yang tak tahan nak dengor suara gemersik ala2 pasir berdengung tuh.. tak sedau diri botoi orang tua tuh.. cian kat zack, aku ngan k.ina ni.. wahahahaha. kitorang kutuk sakan ler.. time aku plak kenakan dia...

a litle bit tired 2dae. tomorrow last exam paper, immuno. perhaps i do well n more better before diz. nasib baik dengor farez nyanyi, release r tension aku ni cket.. cket jer okey, kawan2.. lain2 tu menambahkan derita jer...

manyak2 tension maa..

rindu kat kampong.. nka balik kampong...
rindu kat mak.... nak jumpa mak jugak...
nak jumpa ayah.....

huuhuhhuhuhhuhu...................

hampir ke penghujung

hmmm...
masa makin hampir ke penghujungnya...
waktu memang makin menjarak...menjauh dari aku.. tak sempat untuk aku mengejar ..
rupa-rupanya sudah penat aku berlari dan sudah letih aku memanggil...,
menunggu agar bisa waktu di perlahan ...
aneh.. aku buntuh untuk cukup waktu.. oleh itu ada apa dengan 24jam sehari..??
ya, aku cengeng.. untuk punya waktu lebih dari kebiasaannya, aku tamak..
padahal aku tak punya management yg bagus untuk mengatur hidup agar lebih tersusun.. aku
tidak punya organizer yg mampu menitip tiap2 aktiviti aku..
hmmmm..
jam biology aku juga sudah sampai tahap kronik.
mungkin jua akan rosak untuk ke sekian kalinya nanti..
sudah mati-matian aku mencuba agar jam biology aku pulih.
ermmmm...
mangambil masa barangkali...
buat sekarang aku hanya akan terus menunggu dan terus setia menuggu..
penantian adalah satu penyiksaan,bukan..
masa, detik berlalu menyapa aku..dan aku??
hanya mampu untuk melihat dan memandang sepi..
mana mungkin bisa aku undurkan waktu lalu..
sememangnya ia telah pergi menjauh dan tak kan kembali lagi..
hari esok membawa beribu kemungkinan yg maha tak pasti..
hanya menanti..
sabar..

ketemu lagi..

saat orang yang pernah memberikan sedikit inspirasi untuk aku mengerti erti hidup ini, saat itulah dia pergi..

hilang dan entah kemana..



hmm..

yang pasti perginya akan membuat aku terasa sepi sedikit..

coretannya pernah membuat aku teruji, memfungsikan sebahagian dari otak ini untuk berfikir..

untuk mencari setiap erti yg tertulis d sebalik kata2 yg kdg2 sukar untuk aku mengerti..

tapi hasil nya benar, seperti tulus, walau pucuk dan pangkalnya sering menjadi kabus dan kabur..

nampak macam ikhlas..

namun mungkin sudah agak letih barangkali saat ini..

semoga kita akn ketemu lagi, Ami...



"You can make more friends in two months by becoming interested in other people than you can in two years by trying to get other people interested in you"

-Dale Carnegie

aku...

kita akan tahu bila masa kita akan berdosa...
berdosa apabila kita menyakiti hati orang yang menyayangi kita..
tanpa kerelaan kita..tanpa sengaja...
saat itu airmata kita akan menitis,
dan mengalir ..
rupanya baru kita tersedar yang kita telah menyakiti hati insan yg tak berdosa..
hati aku pernah sedingin salju..
namun ia akan masih tetap sebegitu..
The years teach much which the days never know.

The only journey is the journey within..

kenapa hidup harus ada yang menyesakkan??

"Adakalanya kita perlu menangis agar kita tahu bahawa hidup ini bukan sekadar untuk ketawa dan adakalanya kita perlu ketawa agar kita tahu menilai mahalnya setitis air mata."

kenapa harus ada kehidupan yang membangkitkan kemarahan pada isi di dalamnya??

Imagine every day to be the last of a life surrounded with hopes, cares, anger, and fear. The hours that come unexpectedly will be so much more the grateful.

kenapa hanya aturan ini yang ada untuk mereka yg seperti aku..

Life is like a library owned by the author. In it are a few books which he wrote himself,but most of them were written for him.
kenapa pertengahannya begini??
Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.

BENCI TAHAP DEWA

BENCINYER......
BENCI KAT MR.BENGONG TU..
MR.BENGONGGGGGGG...............
mintak2 Allah tunjukkan balasan kat dia..
eeeeeeeeeeeeiiiiiiiiiiiiii....geramnyer....
kill2..die2....
keldai betullaa.....

hate that homo sapiens.....
meruap rasa marah aku nih...
boleh blah laa...
go to helllllllllll......
manusia yang paling bodoh dan yg paling aku benci nak jumpa ataupun nak tengok ...

MR BENGONG YANG BENGONG NAK MAMPUS!!!!!!!!!
BENCINYERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR......

penat

ya Allah.. naper aku rasa penatyang amat sangat nih?? almost a few days i've never got a proper sleep. selalu tidor lewat semata2 nak siapkan assgmnt, lab report , exersice.. ngan problem mara yg tak settle2 lg. dunia seakan nak terbalik bagi aku. perghh..orang lain pun ada masalah jugak, what..tired all d way. kalo ikutkan hati budak2 aku nih, maunya aku berenti belajar balik kg,keje.. but there r one thing that i keep on promise with my parent. i'll never gonna let them down again. no way..

memang bukan dinamakan hidup kalo tak di uji.
thanks sbb buat aku makin banyak berfikir tentang hidup,
every cloud had silver lining..

belajar dan terus belajar..
bosan tahap cipan,
tertekan gila baban..

dugaan2..
selalu datang dan pergi..
silih berganti
tapi yg pasti
aku tak akan undur diri lagi...

perjalanan aku masih panjang, perhaps..
there are lot stuff that i need to do,
to be settle
i had a person to be love
to be appreciate
to care n
to talk.

my path not a linear,
it was folded n miserable
at the one moment... really.., horible.

the road not taken

-2 ogos 2008
-about 12.45.
-hungry mood..
-home sweet home..

it was a quite n boring day that i need to face in that weekend. really jiwa kacau..lots thing r in my mind now.. got an idea: wanna go at my sis house.
next destination..
rawang...

-it was 3.59 p.m
-in da house.

count a minute to go there...
just go alone by myself. i'm growing up..so need to do with my own..
count a second to turn a minute..
n time passing by so slowly for me..
can't wait..

-already 4.30p.m
-infront of MSU, waiting the taxi to batu 3.
-unpatiently feeling inside.

go to batu 3 lonely.
queue up..
buy the tren ticket
wait bout a few minute before the tren arrive.
before that dad calling.
i told him wat i wanna go n do.
he said ok..

-inside the tren
-at stesyen subang jaya.

coming up a few people.
got some noisy..
it bcome half filled..weekend...

-kl sentral
-change the tren to rawang..

alots of homo sapiens..
waiting and keep on waiting..
time is running up..

-rawang
-new faces
-new environtment

my sis waiting 4 me at last..
after she finish her job, got rushing to take me up.
sorry for the difficulty.
but i miss you n bcoz of that i need to see you..
sorry for trobling you,sis..
but i hope i want to be at your side now.
sorry for the clumsy,
but i forced to do it..

-8.30pm
-pasar malam
-riding angah new's motorcycle.
-honda wave in white color.

got to tempt her.
buy nasi beriani n apam balik..
satisfied..
happy face..
angah had said that i just know d tactics on how to kikis her money..hahaha..=p
im her sister..
i know well..
i got the kindness sister eva..

-10.26pm
-already to mid-night.
-talking n laughing.

talking about the nonsense thing wit my sis.
keep laughing and screaming either.
my trouble was flyin away..
thanks sis..
for the moment..

-3 ogos 2008
-it was hot sunday.
-early morning

get up.
got a message from mom n then follow-up by the call.
ask me how to be there.
i said everythings fine n both of us r hepy.
life is not to0 horrible when u think it in the other way.
made my own 'mee goreng'.
match it with hot tea.
perghhhh... that enough.

-3.30pm
-time to go back home.
-i don't want.

angah force me to go home early.
worried if coming to s.a in night.
calm down sis. i knoe wat to do.
got to ride first before go back.
hahaha.. jiwa still kaco..
life was like that..
go to rawang stesyen.
buy a ticket straight to batu 3.
wonder how to coming again.
every weekend..
impossible..
got a wave goodbye to her. thanks angah.
gonna miss you..

-5.43pm
-home sweet home.

after leave zack bout a day n half, finally im coming back home.
thanks to god coz i can still saw her face again.
she wanna join sara to go to giant.
n i want to follow them.
enjoy th holiday like a crazy one.
but im hepy..
eventhough for a while..

there are road that im not taken... n i could not take that path anymore.. life just about "fair n square".. is that rite?? perhaps..