two is lonely

hmm.. bangun pagi, siap2 ape yg patut then go to class.. until in the middle of the day.. going home, rest 4 a while then get back to face all the books until morning... n life was going like that all over the week, turn to months n years.. finally i will escape from all this things again then go back as usually but with different phases.. working time plak.., life gonna be really tired sometimes.. and also busy..busy..busy..and busy....=(..

there are no more time to get enjoy in mylife.. my life just not a life anymore.. perghhhh.... so boring. bring back my joy...

semalam finale MSu voice of star 2oo8.. hahaha.. pi tengok ngan member2 sebab utama k.ngah dpt g final laa.. fulamak..comel n cantek gler k.ngah.. hehehehe..beautiful2..

LOVIN EACH DAY- RONAN KEATING

A come on
yeah...yeah....
We're lovin' each day
as if it's our last
dancing all night and havin' a blast
Cos baby
I need you here
Girl I'm on a missi
onto cure my condition
Cause without your kissin'my heart's just a prison
So I'm hoping and wishin'that girl I'm forgiven
say yeah, yeah yeah
Cause every time you leave me I'm sad
the moment you're returning
I'm glad
So let's not go forgetting what we have
Cause it's bad, so damn bad yeah
We're lovin' each day
as if it's our last
dancin' all night and havin' a blast
oh baby,
I want you right here next to me
We're lovin' each day
as if it's our last
dancin' all night and havin' a laugh
please baby
I need you here
If I hurt your feelings then baby we're even
Cause I've been bereaving
since you said you're leaving
But now you're by my sidel
et's not fight
Cause you're right
That every time
I lose you
I'm lost no more you versus me girl
there's just us
Cause anything without you’s
just a bust
baby trust you're a must yeah yeah
We're lovin' each day
as if it's our last
dancing all night havin a blast
oh Baby
I want you right here next to me
We're lovin each day
as if it's our last
dancing all night and havin a laugh
please baby
I need you here
huh
So don't go throwing our love away
It's here to stay
I'm telling you there's nothing that can stop us anyway
Our love's an ocean, let's get it in motion
We're lovin' each day as if it's our last
Dancing all night and havin a blast, oh Baby
I need you hereI need you here...

lagu ni mengulit kembali kenangan lama ..wahahahaha.. sedih siot... =p

there r too many thing that unwritten here...
the one that can hurt..
the one that can crush the feeling..
and its hard to say sometimes...
and hard to let it go too..
there are peolpe like to make a joke from others weakness n there are also like to tell the untruth things.. lying?? it become complicated right now..

too many things in mind now..
it can blow out anytime n anywhere..
life not to easy for me..
peace ..

ni plak masa kat booth kelab wawasan laa.. dah nak kemas2 balik so ambik gambar lagi laa.. hahaha.. pose ala2 malu gitu yer.. harharhar.. ni plak web cam dr laptop farez..=j..

friends doesn't matter bout time n place.. isn'it??

heppy spending time with me, zack..

bisu??
for what to be bisu when you
can talk ,
can speak out,
can cry,
can scream,
can muttering..

me??
sometimes in my mind..
i would say "yes, i do.."

"sometimes there are something that we need to face things alone without others.. why?? because we don't know how to tell n we don't want others get worried too.. times will pass n either with problems.."

hmmm.. introduction for my next post..

semalam g tengok singing competition kat teater hall.. k.ngah ada masuk nyanyi jugak.. suara dia memang lunak, nyanyi lagu datuk siti nurhaliza, lagu yang aku pernah minat dulu tapi sekarang pun minat lagi jugak.. tone suara k.ngah lain dr siti so org ckp takde lah yg klon or nak tiru2..even sumer orang cam terpaku dgr k.ngah nyanyi.. congratulate sis..tapi result utk ke final still tak tau lagi.. hahaha..the oldman also there but just for a while..he want to play badminton at perdana..hmm..as what he said..i don't care.. but before that he told me something which i could heard it clearly.. let it be..

that night k.rina also told me about the rent house, at tadisma.. she ask me to move together with zack n ejah.. i want too, really.. but there are some problems inside me.. well.. i talk this thing later with them coz i quite clumsy in these few day. tomorrow will have two quiz bout general biology and human genetics. perhaps i can make it really well.. im still blur right now..whatever i really appreciate what k.rina had done to us.. im little bit touching actually.. u will know that feeling very well when u r far distance from home, with no body else by urside n then sunddenly come up one person which did't even had a real relationship but helpfully to see u happy n comfort here. a big thanks to future-mom..=j

after the competition, faez, faiz, z, ejah, siti n also mr.Bullah (not forget myself) going to the restauant , eating something n make a little conversation. i didn't have a mood..but i'm really sorry for them.. owhhhh.. sorry friends.. zack send me a messege ask what happen. but i not reply while in case i lost my credit..( habis daa) farezz also ask me why i'm quite. i said nothing n everythings r okay.. but sunddenly my tears was drop by my cheeck. oh, god.. how embrassing it is.. i spoilt the situation..=(..

mr.Bullah send us home then..during all the way to go gome we all singing together.. song from couple.. acha n irwanshah and also dafi n gita gutawa..hahaha.. singing all the night.. thanks mr.Bullah..=j

today there are looks like a busy day for me.. got to attend my microbiology lab session at ten while really early in da morning i've already at campus to prepare wawasan's club booth.. today a little bit busy for me.. to handle a carnival with other team members n handle the practical lab with classmate at a few time intervals...hmmm.. well everythings seem quite to be cool and steady.. at the class, i've got a new member.. man, quite handsome, fair n lovely, terengganu man of course..hehehe.. change a lab coat with Satish..for size S.. already had the bigger than it, in M size.. Thanks, buddy..

at the booth we all got a lots of new team members who wants to join us in the activities... hihihi.. a litlle bit happy at the same time feel something missing but dont know what it is.. the oldman was coming too.. hahaha.. spent us with cendol.. emmm... all the thirsty was gone..=j..thanks ya.. but did'nt go for work i mean just for half day only..hmmm.. like it was his own company.. lantaklaa...

ni bukan geng bus sekolah tau..sebab daa terlebih korum.. geng2 yg memeriahkan booth kelab wawasan..harharhar.. (yg pakai bj ijau ni lah k.rina..)

before going home, lepak2 at k.rina house.. gossiping n drinks pearl kacip fatimah..=j.. actually im not drink it.. did'nt like the taste.. going house by riding rapid kl..

alamak...forget.. assigment for puan roslinda not done yet.. arghhhhh.. tension.. arrive at bus stop, go to the stall, eat, come home, bath, change cloth then go back to cc to find out the material for the assignment.. nahh.. tonite will going late to sleep again like the last night. arghhhh.. tension again.. my body was screaming inside ya knoe?? daaa... see ya for tomorrow..the next post..=j..

semalam banyak menda yang terjadi kat aku.. a little bit tension actually.. there was one man which i knew a few months ago in one camp.. just a little time to takes me to be comfort with him.. and i'm really appreciate his way to talk n to make jokes with me.. but recently his joke is quite make me feel so embrassing infront of my other friends.. huhuhu.. hate that things.. he just want to make fool of me.. at one moment i felt just want to geget2 dia..harharahar..makang budok...=p..

eleh.. 'old man' is always like that..hahaha.. he deserve it..
oldman..oldman...oldman...oldman...=p

but i thought it nothing really a big matter for me...my life was going really well in these few day. and really hope it will going be better for tomorrow n the others ..

semalam nak ikut set couple g giant.. memang nak ikut jgk walaupun kete tu dah padat cam ikan jeruk dalam botol. aku wat perangai gedik nak ikut jgk..biarlah diorang nak marah aku ke hape kan.. aku just nak ikut jer.. memandangkan i'm the single one aku slalu kena buli . walaupun kena buli tapi aku tak kisah..

kawan2..
dalam hari-hari aku kalo tak kena buli ngan kwn2 aku , terasa cam something wrong somewhere jer.. n im gonna missing it.. drp aku tak di layan biarlah aku plak yg terlebih layan aku,kan gedik..

kawan2..
hati kena jaga.. alah tak luak pun kalo kena buli, bleh mesra2, erat2kan mana yg patut..dekat2lkan mana yg jauh..ahakz.. ayat.. nak sedapkan hati sendiri lah katekan..

alah.. aku pernah rasalah ape yang diorang rasa skrg.. malah perasaan aku dulu lagi hebat tau.. just give them the chances to luahkan perasaaan masing2.. kasih sayang tak kan hilang dalam diri manusia ni.. percayalah...

back to the story, g giant teman diorang.. aku just singgah kat stall yg jual old magazines n books so i brought 2 of them and just cost rm6. a simple story bout teenager n women life.. title ; 'be mine & two is lonely'.. is that should be three?? in other prespective : YES.. dad, mom n child..=j

semalam tak tahu aku angau aper ntah aku termesej orang yang aku nak hindarkan dalam seumur hidup aku.. terberani nak mesej .. terberani nak taip ayat..nak susun kate2..walaupun dalam hati ada marah dan dendam tapi sebagai manusia yang pernah aku sayang dan hormat aku tetapkan landasan yg sepatutnya.. Allah akan balas balik ape yg kita wat jahat dlu.. dan mungkin aku yg telah terima balasannya..

aku mesej dengan penuh hormatnya.. takut ada yg terasa , takut tergaduh lagi.. alhamdulillah mesej aku di jawab dan di balas dengan sempurna.,. berhenti mesej hanya untuk dua , tiga kerat sahaja.. tapi aku puas.. walau aku ingin panjangkan lagi ayat -ayat aku berunsurkan satu pertanyaan yg ikhlas dan untuk menjawab segala persoalan yg aku nantikan selama ni tyerjawab atau tidak: aku rasakan biarlah sejarah itu berlalu dan yg aku pasti kita seharusnya begini..

tinggalkan aku dalam persoalan yg tidak terjawab sebab aku sendiri dah malas untuk membetulkan ape yg aku rasa aku tak perlu betolkan lagi: aku tak akan dapat putarkan waktu.. untuk kembali seperti dulu.. untuk waktu2 dlu, biarlah terpalit dalam lipatan hari-hari tua aku nanti.. sebab aku pasti untuk mengingati waktu2 itu trelalu mudah bagi aku .. perhaps..

being two is lonely..

aku ingatkan kami boleh jadi baik.. sebab bukan aku tak mahu tapi aku tak boleh.. bukan aku tak ingin tapi tetiba jadi tak teringin langsung .. kau adalah kau.. dan aku adalah aku..

just be mine..

think back for a few years ago..actually it quite tough to me be like now..
life is not what like we expected,kn??
so just follow the flow..
bla...bla...bla...

nothing to say actually..
really boring...
bla..bla..bla...

keep maintain jela....
bla...bla...bla....=(

Kadang-kadang sepi datang tanpa di undang..
dan sepi juga tidak pernah aku pinta hadir dalam hidup aku ni...

hahahaha..
bahagia dunia hanya sementara je..
yang pasti di alam satu lagi aku mahu bahagia yang maha abadi..
Insya Allah..

sepi mengajar aku untuk mencari bahagia sendiri..
bahagia yang mungkin tak dapat di tukar ganti..
kawan-kawan yang hadir ,
yang datang dan pergi seringkali mewarnai hari-hari aku..

thanks for cheer up my day,frenz..



IT'S SO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE TO YESTERDAY...

How do I, say goodbye, to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh, outweigh the bad,
I thought we'd get, to see forever,

But forever's gone away,
It's so hard, to say goodbye, to yesterday
I don't know, where the road, is going to lead,
All I know, is where we've been, and what we been through,
If we get to see tomorrow,

I hope it's worth all the wait,
It's so hard, to say goodbye, to yesterday.
And I'll take, with me the memories,
To be my sunshine after the rain,
It's so hard, to say goodbye, to yesterday

pe2 hal g posing lu..wawawa... actualy ni masa br nak g campus.. ungatkn g pagi upe2nya petang br bertolak .. hangin satu badan aku tau..

wahhhhh..
long time enough for me not post anything here..
quiet miss it well..
hehehe..
im back..

holiday is the best things happen in my student life.. eventhough sometimes quite boring it still the best.. harharhar...

mcm2 menda yg aku buat time cuti br ni.. naik sem dpat result pun okey jer.. alhamdulillah.. tapi smlam dpt tau pinjaman mara tak di luluskan lagi..huhuhu..lagu mana nih?? kalo tak dapat mampuslah aku.. settle pe2 yg patut then baru bleh tarik nafas panjang cket.

hope god bless me..=j..

bukan di nmakan hidup kalo kita tak di uji,kn??kn??
think positive..