two is lonely

kenapa hidup harus ada yang menyesakkan??


kenapa harus ada kehidupan yang membangkitkan kemarahan pada isi di dalamnya??


kenapa hanya aturan ini yang ada untuk mereka yg seperti aku..

BENCINYER......
BENCI KAT MR.BENGONG TU..
MR.BENGONGGGGGGG...............
mintak2 Allah tunjukkan balasan kat dia..
eeeeeeeeeeeeiiiiiiiiiiiiii....geramnyer....
kill2..die2....
keldai betullaa.....

hate that homo sapiens.....
meruap rasa marah aku nih...
boleh blah laa...
go to helllllllllll......
manusia yang paling bodoh dan yg paling aku benci nak jumpa ataupun nak tengok ...

MR BENGONG YANG BENGONG NAK MAMPUS!!!!!!!!!
BENCINYERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR......

ya Allah.. naper aku rasa penatyang amat sangat nih?? almost a few days i've never got a proper sleep. selalu tidor lewat semata2 nak siapkan assgmnt, lab report , exersice.. ngan problem mara yg tak settle2 lg. dunia seakan nak terbalik bagi aku. perghh..orang lain pun ada masalah jugak, what..tired all d way. kalo ikutkan hati budak2 aku nih, maunya aku berenti belajar balik kg,keje.. but there r one thing that i keep on promise with my parent. i'll never gonna let them down again. no way..

memang bukan dinamakan hidup kalo tak di uji.
thanks sbb buat aku makin banyak berfikir tentang hidup,
every cloud had silver lining..

belajar dan terus belajar..
bosan tahap cipan,
tertekan gila baban..

dugaan2..
selalu datang dan pergi..
silih berganti
tapi yg pasti
aku tak akan undur diri lagi...

perjalanan aku masih panjang, perhaps..
there are lot stuff that i need to do,
to be settle
i had a person to be love
to be appreciate
to care n
to talk.

my path not a linear,
it was folded n miserable
at the one moment... really.., horible.

-2 ogos 2008
-about 12.45.
-hungry mood..
-home sweet home..

it was a quite n boring day that i need to face in that weekend. really jiwa kacau..lots thing r in my mind now.. got an idea: wanna go at my sis house.
next destination..
rawang...

-it was 3.59 p.m
-in da house.

count a minute to go there...
just go alone by myself. i'm growing up..so need to do with my own..
count a second to turn a minute..
n time passing by so slowly for me..
can't wait..

-already 4.30p.m
-infront of MSU, waiting the taxi to batu 3.
-unpatiently feeling inside.

go to batu 3 lonely.
queue up..
buy the tren ticket
wait bout a few minute before the tren arrive.
before that dad calling.
i told him wat i wanna go n do.
he said ok..

-inside the tren
-at stesyen subang jaya.

coming up a few people.
got some noisy..
it bcome half filled..weekend...

-kl sentral
-change the tren to rawang..

alots of homo sapiens..
waiting and keep on waiting..
time is running up..

-rawang
-new faces
-new environtment

my sis waiting 4 me at last..
after she finish her job, got rushing to take me up.
sorry for the difficulty.
but i miss you n bcoz of that i need to see you..
sorry for trobling you,sis..
but i hope i want to be at your side now.
sorry for the clumsy,
but i forced to do it..

-8.30pm
-pasar malam
-riding angah new's motorcycle.
-honda wave in white color.

got to tempt her.
buy nasi beriani n apam balik..
satisfied..
happy face..
angah had said that i just know d tactics on how to kikis her money..hahaha..=p
im her sister..
i know well..
i got the kindness sister eva..

-10.26pm
-already to mid-night.
-talking n laughing.

talking about the nonsense thing wit my sis.
keep laughing and screaming either.
my trouble was flyin away..
thanks sis..
for the moment..

-3 ogos 2008
-it was hot sunday.
-early morning

get up.
got a message from mom n then follow-up by the call.
ask me how to be there.
i said everythings fine n both of us r hepy.
life is not to0 horrible when u think it in the other way.
made my own 'mee goreng'.
match it with hot tea.
perghhhh... that enough.

-3.30pm
-time to go back home.
-i don't want.

angah force me to go home early.
worried if coming to s.a in night.
calm down sis. i knoe wat to do.
got to ride first before go back.
hahaha.. jiwa still kaco..
life was like that..
go to rawang stesyen.
buy a ticket straight to batu 3.
wonder how to coming again.
every weekend..
impossible..
got a wave goodbye to her. thanks angah.
gonna miss you..

-5.43pm
-home sweet home.

after leave zack bout a day n half, finally im coming back home.
thanks to god coz i can still saw her face again.
she wanna join sara to go to giant.
n i want to follow them.
enjoy th holiday like a crazy one.
but im hepy..
eventhough for a while..

there are road that im not taken... n i could not take that path anymore.. life just about "fair n square".. is that rite?? perhaps..