two is lonely

bisu??
for what to be bisu when you
can talk ,
can speak out,
can cry,
can scream,
can muttering..

me??
sometimes in my mind..
i would say "yes, i do.."

"sometimes there are something that we need to face things alone without others.. why?? because we don't know how to tell n we don't want others get worried too.. times will pass n either with problems.."

hmmm.. introduction for my next post..

semalam g tengok singing competition kat teater hall.. k.ngah ada masuk nyanyi jugak.. suara dia memang lunak, nyanyi lagu datuk siti nurhaliza, lagu yang aku pernah minat dulu tapi sekarang pun minat lagi jugak.. tone suara k.ngah lain dr siti so org ckp takde lah yg klon or nak tiru2..even sumer orang cam terpaku dgr k.ngah nyanyi.. congratulate sis..tapi result utk ke final still tak tau lagi.. hahaha..the oldman also there but just for a while..he want to play badminton at perdana..hmm..as what he said..i don't care.. but before that he told me something which i could heard it clearly.. let it be..

that night k.rina also told me about the rent house, at tadisma.. she ask me to move together with zack n ejah.. i want too, really.. but there are some problems inside me.. well.. i talk this thing later with them coz i quite clumsy in these few day. tomorrow will have two quiz bout general biology and human genetics. perhaps i can make it really well.. im still blur right now..whatever i really appreciate what k.rina had done to us.. im little bit touching actually.. u will know that feeling very well when u r far distance from home, with no body else by urside n then sunddenly come up one person which did't even had a real relationship but helpfully to see u happy n comfort here. a big thanks to future-mom..=j

after the competition, faez, faiz, z, ejah, siti n also mr.Bullah (not forget myself) going to the restauant , eating something n make a little conversation. i didn't have a mood..but i'm really sorry for them.. owhhhh.. sorry friends.. zack send me a messege ask what happen. but i not reply while in case i lost my credit..( habis daa) farezz also ask me why i'm quite. i said nothing n everythings r okay.. but sunddenly my tears was drop by my cheeck. oh, god.. how embrassing it is.. i spoilt the situation..=(..

mr.Bullah send us home then..during all the way to go gome we all singing together.. song from couple.. acha n irwanshah and also dafi n gita gutawa..hahaha.. singing all the night.. thanks mr.Bullah..=j

today there are looks like a busy day for me.. got to attend my microbiology lab session at ten while really early in da morning i've already at campus to prepare wawasan's club booth.. today a little bit busy for me.. to handle a carnival with other team members n handle the practical lab with classmate at a few time intervals...hmmm.. well everythings seem quite to be cool and steady.. at the class, i've got a new member.. man, quite handsome, fair n lovely, terengganu man of course..hehehe.. change a lab coat with Satish..for size S.. already had the bigger than it, in M size.. Thanks, buddy..

at the booth we all got a lots of new team members who wants to join us in the activities... hihihi.. a litlle bit happy at the same time feel something missing but dont know what it is.. the oldman was coming too.. hahaha.. spent us with cendol.. emmm... all the thirsty was gone..=j..thanks ya.. but did'nt go for work i mean just for half day only..hmmm.. like it was his own company.. lantaklaa...

ni bukan geng bus sekolah tau..sebab daa terlebih korum.. geng2 yg memeriahkan booth kelab wawasan..harharhar.. (yg pakai bj ijau ni lah k.rina..)

before going home, lepak2 at k.rina house.. gossiping n drinks pearl kacip fatimah..=j.. actually im not drink it.. did'nt like the taste.. going house by riding rapid kl..

alamak...forget.. assigment for puan roslinda not done yet.. arghhhhh.. tension.. arrive at bus stop, go to the stall, eat, come home, bath, change cloth then go back to cc to find out the material for the assignment.. nahh.. tonite will going late to sleep again like the last night. arghhhh.. tension again.. my body was screaming inside ya knoe?? daaa... see ya for tomorrow..the next post..=j..

semalam banyak menda yang terjadi kat aku.. a little bit tension actually.. there was one man which i knew a few months ago in one camp.. just a little time to takes me to be comfort with him.. and i'm really appreciate his way to talk n to make jokes with me.. but recently his joke is quite make me feel so embrassing infront of my other friends.. huhuhu.. hate that things.. he just want to make fool of me.. at one moment i felt just want to geget2 dia..harharahar..makang budok...=p..

eleh.. 'old man' is always like that..hahaha.. he deserve it..
oldman..oldman...oldman...oldman...=p

but i thought it nothing really a big matter for me...my life was going really well in these few day. and really hope it will going be better for tomorrow n the others ..

semalam nak ikut set couple g giant.. memang nak ikut jgk walaupun kete tu dah padat cam ikan jeruk dalam botol. aku wat perangai gedik nak ikut jgk..biarlah diorang nak marah aku ke hape kan.. aku just nak ikut jer.. memandangkan i'm the single one aku slalu kena buli . walaupun kena buli tapi aku tak kisah..

kawan2..
dalam hari-hari aku kalo tak kena buli ngan kwn2 aku , terasa cam something wrong somewhere jer.. n im gonna missing it.. drp aku tak di layan biarlah aku plak yg terlebih layan aku,kan gedik..

kawan2..
hati kena jaga.. alah tak luak pun kalo kena buli, bleh mesra2, erat2kan mana yg patut..dekat2lkan mana yg jauh..ahakz.. ayat.. nak sedapkan hati sendiri lah katekan..

alah.. aku pernah rasalah ape yang diorang rasa skrg.. malah perasaan aku dulu lagi hebat tau.. just give them the chances to luahkan perasaaan masing2.. kasih sayang tak kan hilang dalam diri manusia ni.. percayalah...

back to the story, g giant teman diorang.. aku just singgah kat stall yg jual old magazines n books so i brought 2 of them and just cost rm6. a simple story bout teenager n women life.. title ; 'be mine & two is lonely'.. is that should be three?? in other prespective : YES.. dad, mom n child..=j